The Sound of Metal opens with the bittersweet soundtrack to Ruben’s (Riz Ahmed) life. Music is his passion and livelihood as the drummer in a punk-metal band. It also marks out his morning rituals, it brightens his many road trips, and it’s a means of connecting with his girlfriend and bandmate Lou (Olivia Cooke).

Sound is the way Ruben expresses himself – on every level. So, when Ruben begins to lose his hearing, his whole life is smothered.

It was probably my first experience of reverse psychology. The junior amateur psychologist who was utilising the technique, was clearly adept. “If you really want to watch My Little Pony we can do” my 10 year old brother chimed. A pang of guilt hit my 6 year old heart– "I should let him watch what he wants, that's good sharing". And that was where it began, my introduction to animated and live-action comic book stories.

When you’re a Christian, this thing happens where new, unexpected things remind you of the hope you have in Jesus. For me, as an avid lover of pop culture, it’s often on a screen that these reminders hit me. They hit me whilst watching Moana walk across the water to tell Te’Fiti that she sees her true spirit. They hit me as I read the Narnia books. They hit me as I watch Queer Eyeand see people from different worlds embrace.

A happy exclamation to hear when I’m out on my mountain bike. But in a few days on my next birthday? Not so much…lol. I love the South Downs where we live. Hiking or running are not easy just now. Last October I broke my ankle, in what my physio sniggeringly refers to as “the pinecone incident”.

Winter has been long this year. Cold, wet, windy (and sometimes even snowy!) walks. Stuck inside, watching out the window, staring at the grey ski and wondering when willthe dark clouds part and the sun begin to burst through.

If you ask me what I find the most relatable part of the Easter Story, I think I might always say, the point where the Father abandons Jesus on the cross. As someone who’s dad left her, it always seems to cut deep. In Jesus’ weakest moment, when He was vulnerable, naked and hanging on a cross- the moment where He needed His dad the most, the Father wasn’t there.

Are you a talker or a deep thinker? Naturally every person is a bit of both. But in the last few weeks I’ve really felt my need to talk things through coming to the forefront. I want to tell someone that my snake plant (who I’ve affectionately called Susie) grew a new leaf last week. I want to share in a cheesy film and talk about it afterwards. I love eating food with someone else and say “mmm” at the same time. Small joys are what 2021 is all about, right?

Loss. It’s so easy to define. Loss. We throw it around in casual conversation. Loss. It remains such a small word. Loss. What a funny word, but to experience it is a whole different thing. Loss leads to grief. And they both come. Together.